all you said, you will be better off without me, you sure? then why don't i feel better now?

screwed my bloody life . it all just when haywire. yesterday night , one text msg , telling me to forget & move on. so after all we werent meant to be huh ? without any valid reason . just saying you will be better off without me . you will be happier without me . you sure? yar . im happy , you want me to forget you . so happy im still so screwed , it screwed up everything.

sunday.
when out to west mall to meet rano , clayton. met chelsea after that . slack at subway , headed to arcade then down to KFC slack & chat . thanks dude / babe. for being there for me th whole day . you guys did cheer me up a lil (: . mom came to fetch me , drop clayton off at clementi . headed for dinner with family around bukit timah .  at night . when i was about to fall alseep. a text came in . & then everything changed.

monday.
when for dental . put on braces . its yellow . it hurts a lil though . might be going out later with jed yingning juliana for movie .


thanks for all th promises , they are all lies . thanks for th happiness they are just an illusion . thanks for my smile , it was never meant to be . thanks for th hurt . im dead right now . thanks for telling me i will be better off without you , cuz i know i wont . thanks for all th memories , its whats making me cry now. thanks for th tears . i've run out of them . thanks for th emotions in my life . now im just a heartless freak. thanks for th pain , i cant feel it now. thanks for th care and concern , that was in th past . now everything changed . both of us changed . i wanted to make it up to you but i guess its too late. i dont tell you how much you mean to me . but you really mean alot . you THINK i will be happier . but have you thought what i really think ? i dont tell you , im sorry . i thought you knew . i thought you knew everything . but now , i dont think so . im sorry for th pain i made you feel . im sorry for letting you go first . im sorry for th cause of your life that hurts . im sorry i even got to know you. im sorry i knew you in a very memorable way . im sorry we grew close together . im sorry that i didnt think of how you felt . im sorry for making you go through so much before i gave you my forgivness . im sorry i let go of you again . cuz i thought you would be happier . im sorry it hurt so much . im sorry we patch . im sorry we made promises that both of us couldnt make it come through , im sorry i did those stupid stuff . im sorry i dont know what to do . im sorry i dont know what you were thinking . im sorry i still remember you . im sorry that forgetting you is so hard . im sorry i became so heartless .  im sorry its all too late . im sorry thats all i got to say . i guess now , we're 2 different person . not related in any way . i guess when i look back , i will still remember you . i wonder how long will it take for me to step out . i hope i wont regret . i hope you wont either . i want you to be happy . & if your happier this way . so be it . thanks for eveything & sorry i gave you nothing in th end .