im super bored ! super lot of people slept early today . gone to their dreamland . haizxc ! now, i staring at th computer & craping on blog. what is this manzxc ! lalalala ! should i go to sleep now ? crap . den i will wake up so early . & do nothing . sianzxc ! entertainers gone for break . haizxc . im yawning ! O.o tomorrow most likely going kbox with clara :D . haven plan anything yet. lost alot of pictures due to my phone being spoil . sianzxc ! crappy phone . spoiled ! kop this few pic from ashley phone. manzxc ! shall go check if yixin or jiaying phone has more ^^. damn my phone . noe is alrd 1.43am . i shall go & bathe . LOL . random ! :D
this pass few days . alot of things happen . faced reality . th truth was being said out by th person whom lied. hit me right in th face , without any warning first. it all came so sudden . a lil' too fast . i wasnt expecting this to happen before , currently , or after. but it all happen , nothing could change it . it all happen , no use hiding from it . it only just makes me a coward. that person ain't worth my anything, i just realise that . i took a long & painful time to realise that , but it's all worth it . for ever step i missed , i learn to be careful for it th next step . though , i keep falling down , its a procceder. gone through it , you will realise that you grew stronger . used to be th point im reaching for but now , i realise your just an obstical that as long as i pass it , i would be a new me , a BETTER new me. a stronger me . you may not know how much it hurts . but it really did . but dont worry , i will lead back th old life i have , with or without you . its not worth th pain just to make you stay , th effort needed is just time . time will heal all wounds . you left a mark on me. but soon , i promise myself i would be able to stand back up , to live a better life . a life i always wanted . im not gonna beg you to stay, im not gonna give in to you , im not gonna let you know how much i need you . i wan you to realize that even with or without you , i could live a life of an ordinary 13 years old girl. i dont wanna get hurt by you ever again . i believe that everything happens for a reason. i use to believe in your lies. & i learn to trust no one exept yourself. it doesn't matter anymore. its all once upon a time . nothing last forever .
this pass few days . alot of things happen . faced reality . th truth was being said out by th person whom lied. hit me right in th face , without any warning first. it all came so sudden . a lil' too fast . i wasnt expecting this to happen before , currently , or after. but it all happen , nothing could change it . it all happen , no use hiding from it . it only just makes me a coward. that person ain't worth my anything, i just realise that . i took a long & painful time to realise that , but it's all worth it . for ever step i missed , i learn to be careful for it th next step . though , i keep falling down , its a procceder. gone through it , you will realise that you grew stronger . used to be th point im reaching for but now , i realise your just an obstical that as long as i pass it , i would be a new me , a BETTER new me. a stronger me . you may not know how much it hurts . but it really did . but dont worry , i will lead back th old life i have , with or without you . its not worth th pain just to make you stay , th effort needed is just time . time will heal all wounds . you left a mark on me. but soon , i promise myself i would be able to stand back up , to live a better life . a life i always wanted . im not gonna beg you to stay, im not gonna give in to you , im not gonna let you know how much i need you . i wan you to realize that even with or without you , i could live a life of an ordinary 13 years old girl. i dont wanna get hurt by you ever again . i believe that everything happens for a reason. i use to believe in your lies. & i learn to trust no one exept yourself. it doesn't matter anymore. its all once upon a time . nothing last forever .
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