some things are better to be kept in th dark .

today was kind of damn crappy canzxc !
but mr prathap kind of made me laugh like dog ! LOL!
eng zane tye nvr come ,
recess wanted to stay outside class alone ,
den fakefringe called say wan let me try he make den homeE thingy ^^v .
ask him came up to find me coz i really didnt wanted to go down .
come up , i was with yixin so end up share with her & marcus .
it was nicenicenice ^^v.
i was like hungry , but didnt wanted to go down x: .
but marcus help me buy hello panda ^^v
awww , i have such great friends (:
yesterday got zhiting help me buy milo ,
today got fakefringe let me eat th homeE thingy
& got marcus help me buy hello panda .
i feel so great ! so great to have such great friends ^^v
den ltr yixin wan go fakefringe class & see his bowling tee ,
didnt wanted to go .
really didnt felt like it ,
so end up they bring th tee over let me see .
LOL !
aft chatchat , playplay ,
den recess over go back class .
3 math period .
WTF ._.
teacher give break i straight away sleep xx: .
aft didnt realise th class was laughing at me
coz i was sleeping & break ovr liao ,
still sleep .
damn embaressed x:
math was really hard .
aft sch , glenn come find me.
had some problem .
haizxc !
but i really hope he will learn from his mistakes .
GLENN LEE
i this time help you not coz i nth better to do hor .
you better do what you promise uhs .
den ltr me & fakefringe go find jiaying & ashley .
aft that me & jiaying when for NPCC training .
aft training ashley & yixin waited for us ,
so me , chelsea , jiaying , ashley , yixin
when SP eat .
den ltr bused home with ashley .

some things are better to not know .

cuz when i knew about it ,

th next thing i have to do was to lie .

i really had enough of lieing ,

but what else can i do ?

i couldn't break promises ,

i couldn't ans to myself .

i totally dk how many times i've lied to cover up what i knew .

i really feel bad , really really bad .

i have no idea how to clam down th situation .

im really confused , lost

but there is nothing i could do .

nothing i could say , to make myself feel better .

coz whatever i said , had to be lies ,

just to cover up whatever i knew .

i've been living in lies ,

i totally have no mood to even feel happy .

i totally feel guilty , guilty to whomever i fcuking lied to .