if only forgetting you was just as easy as to be said .

i have no idea whats wrong with myself nowsadays . keep getting sad over those lil memories . even th smallest thing , i still couldn't forget . ovr what you've said made sense , you were right . but over what i feel just cant help but think && think . its time i gave up && move on , but if giving up was as simple as when its said . i still couldn't forget what happen . is like dropping from 99th story till somewhere that i have no idea where is it . i am afraid , tired , bothered . afraid of no being able to forget you && do some stupid foolish things . tired of telling myself to stop getting distracted . tired of holding on anymore , but i just couldn't let it go . im like tied up . bothered about how much you meant to me . th memories couldn't be bought back . th time couldn't be rewind . but why cant my feelings for you just go away ? if only i didn't held on too tight . den i wont have to suffer in silience . im still not use to th kind of life i have now . if only it was back in th past where i dont have to go through all this alone . when there was you around .