i never wanted perfection .

just kana scolded by mom . nvr off aircon coz i though my sis still sleeping . drop water && all . crap la . why does parents always wan perfection ? perfection isn't everything . yes , im a bodoh who is very stupid && dk how to get things done right , but i dont ask much from myself yeah . i never wanted a perfect life . what i wan is just to have a simple && happy life . you said you tried hard , u fail as a mom && dont wan bother bout me alrd . is just because you tried too hard . you wan it all perfect . u nvr wanted mistakes . u nvr fail in my heart is just that nobodys perfect why do u still ask so much from urself && from this family ? is like im a slacker , i hate studying , i dont study much , i know if i dont study i wont have a bright future at all , but i nvr put much presure on myself , i nvr set my tagets too high till i know that im not able to success . yes , i know everyone should make their future plan alrd , like what u wan to work as , bout ur family && all , but i know i might regret for not studying hard , && yes , im not always happy , but compared to ppl who presure themselves too much , im way way happier then them . your always a clean freak , one drop of water can make you get so eff up till idk ? but who doesnt drop stuff ? one nevermind can make you whole face turn black . i admit i slack way too much , till even idk if im able to stay in expree && all . i always tell myself im need to study , and even if i dont , i wont presure myself , yes , i may regret next time but for now , im just going to live th way i wan my life to be .
i wonder why when you grow older , you just feel life getting more && more boring , useless . start to worry more , stressed up more && all . is like even if we grow older , it doesnt mean we should change th way we think in like . why couldn't it be like th way when i was still a child playing happily without worries ?
i nvr wanted && needed perfection , what i wan most is just to be happy && to be simple . perfection isn't th most important thing in life . yes , everyone will be better with perfection , but who knows , you may not be happy to be perfect nor will ur life be simple .

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